OMG. I am going crazy right now, I'm in the middle of my finals, I can't deal with this anymore !, I just want summer ...

So, "Leo" came to pick up his pjs yesterday night, and well he didn't even try to come in my room, he was just standing there, well not that I wanted him to come over but I guess it was a bit awkward, it always is with us. After that, nothing really been really busy with exams. I saw him today, but nothing crazy , I didn't even say hi even though he looked me in the eye very clearly. Then again he was talking to that other girl and I couldn't be bothered to go up to him and talk. So right now I'm just studying and revising and waiting impatiently for SUMMER <3

Stay tuned,

Live, Laugh & Love,  TMEgirl.

Well hello hello !

It has been a couple of weeks, and I must say I miss writing ! I was very busy with revisions for my finals... 

but trust me, it was worth the wait ! 

So, long story short, me and " Leo " got closer; not the kind of close you are probably thinking of, but closer as in we might have slept in the same bed; woah woah woah you wana know more? 

So, there was this party organized by my school, and me and my friends decided to go. To my surprise, "Leo" was there. I wasn't giving him much attention because in my opinion he is way too cocky, he is this handsome boy who knows he is handsome and doesn't use it in the best way. Nevertheless, I decide to go up to him in the club after a good two hour of questioning myself whether I should or not. So, I end up going up to him and doing small talk. He said he was going to leave in 5 minutes, so I ask him very spontaneously if I can leave with him, as we both live in the same building. He obviously says yes, so we end up leaving, except I forgot my jacket at the club where my room keys were too, but I didn't know that until I get back to my building. Hang on, so, we arrive at our school campus and things start to move from here. 

First, I get out of the cab, walk not even a meter, and fall in front of him big time, it was quite embarrassing. Then I walk bare feet to my building, and kiss him on the cheek goodnight. I get to my door, and realize I don't have my keys, my friends were still at the club so I was waiting for them to bring me back my jacket with my keys in it. So, in the mean time I decide to message "Leo" to ask if I could hang out with him by the time my friends get back. Well, obviously he says yes too. AND NOW it starts. so first I get in his room, and he is SHIRTLESS, honestly it wasn't something amazing to me, I was just so out of it that I couldn't  really function. So I sit on a chair, and talk to him. Suddenly he asks " Do you wana lie down ? " I knew where this was going, but you know I just felt like its too easy, everything seems smooth and easy as he was feeding me, making me tea, puts on some nice music, any other girl would've jumped on the occasion as he is a very handsome man. Anyways, I get a message from my friend who tells me that my keys weren't in my jacket, so I was basically homeless. I knocked on my friends doors to see if I could eventually crash at their place for the night, they were all "busy" with their men. So, "Leo" kindly suggests that I can spend the night in his bed, with all due respect. I must tell you , this bed is a single bed, which means that two people sleeping in it would very much turn into a hook up very fast. I acted like I felt a bit uncomfortable and weird doing that, because I obviously don't know the guy, but I was homeless so I had to sleep in there. So I do, and next morning I wake up next to him felt very awkward, I go to his bathroom and get back in his bed. We both woke up at 2 in the afternoon, I decide to call security to open my room since I had lost my keys.Then I realized, we slept in the same bed, woke up together in the same bed, and NOTHING happened? a SINGLE bed not a KING SIZE BED where you have all the space you need, and yet we still managed not to touch each other at all ! So I come back to his room and take back my stuff from yesterday night, and I thought maybe we would kiss , but nothing happened, at all. 

Next day, I ask him if he wants to watch a movie with me, to make it up for this awkward night. First he says he's at friends house, but he will come later on because his friends want to go out and not him. So I'm happy, cause it's gona work out my way but an hour later tells me not to wait up because his friends won't let him leave. So, I sleep and next day I wake up and go out of my building and I see him talking to this girl who is in my class for 3 hours, literally 3 hours, I was a bit upset because he didn't even try to make it up to me, or to reschedule and there he is talking to this girl for 3 hours, not to mention she isn't pretty at all. The day after that, I see him with her at school ,and the day after that my friend does see them again at midnight talking at school, and then I do see them talking at school around midnight. So, I decided , I am going to drop it for good.


Stay tuned for more,

Live, Laugh & Love, TMEgirl.

Bonsoir readers,

So, I have been really busy lately with exams, but now that I have a moment to write let me tell you what you've missed.

So, me and " Leo " have been talking to each other, bumping into each other quite often at school but nothing more. It certainly is driving me insane but I can do nothing about it. I wish things would go my way but as you may all know it doesn't always work out our way. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hopefully something exciting will happen real soon between us.

About "Sasha" my ex, well, we're in a really good "friendly" place right now, and I really like it. I realized I no longer have feelings for him and that's why I feel better about myself and my life. Nothing is distracting me anymore, I can't believe I finally got to this place, peaceful me. 

So other than that, nothing new, nothing interesting. 

Stay tuned for more exciting posts,

Live, Laugh & Love, TMEgirl.

Bonjour readers, 

I know I haven't been posting anything for a while, I have been busy with my birthday, my love life, my studies.... a little bit of everything. Oh well, what did you miss ? 

First, I am officially 20 ! Spent my birthday in Paris with my friends was really fun ! Now I'm back to school, and hmm well good news and bad news. 

Let's start with Leo, well he and me hung out once in my room really late at night, learning more about each other, it was a bit awkward at first but eventually we got along and I must say the last impression I had of this night : A GREAT ONE. He seems like a nice guy, and he seemed interested in me, well yeah " he seemed" . I don't know this week has been dull, boring, nothing is happening and Leo doesn't ask about me or message me so I dropped it completely. Now it's back to exams mode ! A good distraction I guess...


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I know I have been talking a lot about "Sacha" but you can't just hold on to the past while the other person is already moving on. So, I decided after yesterday's events, that I have to be more outgoing and be open to other options than "Sacha". So, there's this guy let's call him " Leo ", very very handsome. Funny thing, we met at the door of my building, he lives in the same building as me. So, he started holding doors for me, a little smiling here and there and that's how it started. He was too good to be true, I never thought a guy as handsome as him would be interested in me, so I let it go I thought it was all in my head. Turns out, it wasn't. So he looked me up and found me online and started talking to me. A month passed, I saw him at school, but nothing more then basic conversation " hey how are you alright see you later". I was so occupied with my situation with "Sacha" that I didn't know other people were interested in me. Until yesterday. Today I woke up and said to myself, you gotta move on with your life. So, I message him online and gosh may I say this sexual tension there is between us, it's cray cray. So he wanted me to go to the gym with him, but I was too tired because of yesterday. But hey, at least I know I've got all my chances with him so I'll work on that.


Stay tuned,

Live, Laugh & Love, TMEgirl.

Bonsoir readers,

I come bearing good and bad news. So, I hung out with "Sacha" my ex yesterday night. We had a drink in a lovely place, talked about everything and nothing. It was very " friendly " . My close friend "It girl" was having a drink with "Pineapple" "Sacha's" roommate, next door, it's a caféeé really close by. So me and "Sacha" start to walk towards the cafe to go meet them. We see them sitting outside on a terrace and we start talking about everything and nothing again. "Sacha" left after 10 minutes because he was tired. So it was me, "Pineapple" and "It girl", I  was kind of third wheeling but they're very fun so it didn't really matter. So we were about to go out clubbing, when the roommate suggested we go back to his place and watch a movie. So, I tag along. We get to his place, " Sacha" is sleeping. "Pineapple" was speaking loudly so it woke up "Sacha". We started to watch the movie " The Hangover 2 " sipping a bottle of red wine with a straw because there were no clean glasses available at their apartment : BAD IDEA. so you can imagine the rest of the night I pass out drunk on the couch, "It girl" sleeps in "Pineapple's" room. I wake up in the morning with "Sacha" laughing his ass off and waking me up like TMEgirl you passed out in my apartment. He wanted me to leave with him to school but I was too embarrassed and left earlier with "It girl" that was trying to avoid "Pineapple" too. So there you go, I thought me and my ex were going through the right direction but hey it just got blown out of proportions. I went from ignoring, to friendly, to passing out drunk in his apartment. What next ? 

Oh gosh, stay tuned for the rest of my stories

Live, Laugh & Love, TMEgirl.

Bonjour readers,

I hope you all had a great day because so far my day is going great ! I went to class typical university day, then chilled a bit with " It girl " on our school terrace, enjoying the amazing sunny weather and the nice view. Oh and most importantly "Sacha" messaged me today throughout our conversation I let him know if he wants to have a friendly cup of coffee during the week. Well, his answer : Let's do it tonight then. Oh well, remember my last post when I told you what if he comes back to me? How do I deal with it, well well, maybe it's actually happening. I'll keep you posted after my night out with him ! Oh and tonight, I'm going out with " It girl " and other friends to a club in town, maybe he'll join ? 

Stay tuned, i'll come back with new posts soon ! 

Live, Laugh & Love, TMEgirl.

I had this trip organized for my birthday  to Marbella with 4 of my friends including my best friend " Ornella " . Well, as my mother couldn't cover up for me, by that I mean traveling without my father knowing, I had to ask for his permission. And I did, his answer pretty straightforward : NO. I mean, I get that maybe he thinks I should focus on my work more, but come on, it's my birthday. According to him, he hasn't been brought up this way and he thinks it's wrong for me to go on trips with my friends as there will be BOYS WOW. Seriously Dad ? There are boys everywhere.... I warned you sometimes me and my dad have little issues, but oh well a week later he calls me and tells me I can go on the trip. REALLY ? now the plane tickets are a bit too expensive dad ! So yeah, TOTALLY CANCELLED. But I'll be celebrating my birthday in Paris with my dearest friends and my lovely family. Too bad Daddy won't be here for my 20th birthday. Don't get me wrong I LOVE my dad , but sometimes I have a hard time understanding his way of thinking. 

• Live, Love & Laugh, TMEgirl.

Dear readers,

 I have filled you in directly with my dramatic issues about love, friends and others. But I don't think I have talked about myself a lot. Indeed, the name of my blog is about The Middle Eastern Girl. Let me tell you more about it, so I am 20 year old, actually I am turning 20 in 4 days. I live in Paris, the city of love, I am from the Middle-east.

So, I have an older sister who's 24, and wonderful parents. My family is what's most important to me. My mom is so cool, she's like a best friend to me. We tell each other everything. On the other side, my dad is also an amazing person, but I'd say he is more strict educationally wise. Let's say he is very old school, still is keen on old generations values and principles so we have some issues from time to time but oh well, it's always good in the end.

My sister, studies Law in Paris, I believe she will be an amazing lawyer and deserves an amazing career with all of her hard work.

So, my family is very open-minded, as a lot of you readers must ask yourselves but how is really a life of an Arab girl in Europe? Yes, It's hard at times because people don't necessarily understand different cultures straight away. My first year of university was pretty good actually , people came from all over the world with over 99 nationalities. It was amazing. But, sometimes you know there's this issue of "sex" for example. Well, in my culture and religion we have principles, obviously you guys have heard of the rule of "no sex before marriage". Well, I personally apply it, I am a believer. but sometimes it is hard, as an open-minded young teenager who has lived half of her life in Europe, it's always tempting to drink alcohol, sleep with your boyfriend or random guys, do drugs and other things. But if you have a strong will power and if you believe in God and in a greater after life, then you will wait until God sends you the perfect man. Okay, you must think I'm totally crazy , going from boyfriend drama to religion talk, but I just want you to know that no matter what your beliefs are or where you come from it doesn't matter, You do what YOU WANT to do. People will always be there, trying to take you down with them, you just gotta be strong. I was and still am strong and that's why people respect me today, I stood up for myself.

Live, Laugh & Love, TMEgirl.

Bonsoir readers

I haven't been able to sleep lately... or if I do it's very very very late such as 4 AM. Oh gosh, I really don't know how I am going to make it to class tomorrow, university is just so much work ! 

Anyways, I am off to bed and I'll try to sleep.

 Stay tuned, I've got more stories for you 
Bonsoir & Bonne nuit :)

Live, Laugh & Love, TMEgirl.